And that's what I am indulging in as I type in this blogpost. I am procrastinating.
It feels like the most natural thing to do when your mind is overwhelmed with tons of information, and you have no clarity on how it all fits together. When the grand visions of the scheme of things are still in its stages of infancy, and you are drowning in self-doubt and self-pity.
The shameless act is that I know all this, and yet here I am chomping the keys to ward off that edginess I feel.
And while I am idling on this topic lets psychoanalyze as to why? Why is it that I find this more deserving use of my time than doing the actual work. Actual work that I fought so hard to get, which is intriguing. Actual work, with actual deadlines, with looming deadlines.
Talking into a void like this one has to have some kind of validity, or else why is this my chosen mode for procrastination.
Is it about writing things out and then reading them back to me, or is it about a sense of accomplishment of having done something, like writing a post?
Is it about self-validation or self-evaluation?
And while we are on this topic, I did some reading of my own. I came across some interesting stuff. It's very validating and reassuring to learn that its all this sneaky monkey's fault.
BAD BAD MONKEY!!
It feels like the most natural thing to do when your mind is overwhelmed with tons of information, and you have no clarity on how it all fits together. When the grand visions of the scheme of things are still in its stages of infancy, and you are drowning in self-doubt and self-pity.
The shameless act is that I know all this, and yet here I am chomping the keys to ward off that edginess I feel.
And while I am idling on this topic lets psychoanalyze as to why? Why is it that I find this more deserving use of my time than doing the actual work. Actual work that I fought so hard to get, which is intriguing. Actual work, with actual deadlines, with looming deadlines.
Talking into a void like this one has to have some kind of validity, or else why is this my chosen mode for procrastination.
Is it about writing things out and then reading them back to me, or is it about a sense of accomplishment of having done something, like writing a post?
Is it about self-validation or self-evaluation?
And while we are on this topic, I did some reading of my own. I came across some interesting stuff. It's very validating and reassuring to learn that its all this sneaky monkey's fault.
BAD BAD MONKEY!!
